Can't Stop My Tears

Haha... Don't really know if people will read my blog or not. Seems like people who reads just keep silent...

Well, How to say leh...

This month, its really like taking an emotional roller coaster loh...

Happy for Xinlong's BD.
Unhappy for family issues.
Excited for Xmas Deco Team.
Disappointed for my parents.
Glad for my cell group's getting closer.
Stress about sharing Christ with Friends.
Sober from my dilemma in my Christian Life.
Lost in my own pace in school.

I'm seriously in a mess haha.

Yesterday I was told that, "I always seem to be very stressed", even I myself agree to some extend. Man... I don't really know what to say man. I just want to cry, I just want to life my life in peace. I just want stop all the things I'm doing. I know that even as I am typing this post, God knows about my doubts and tensions going in my mind.

Perhaps blogging is the only way I can express myself to my non Christian Circle's buddies and friends. I don't know anymore.

Sorry people, that my posts always seem so stressful... I'm just sorry... For I really don't know what good stuff to write. I mean, seriously, during the happy occasions, I'm just using them to avoid my own pain and sadness within.

But why is letting go of hatred so hard... Why is forgetting the pain in the past so hard...

Even as the daggers in my heart is being removed, the wound is still bleeding...
Even as the blood stopped flowing, my heart still feels so empty...
Thats so true...